Hello - I’m so glad you’re here
After leaving the mormon church I kept it secret. I never told my friends or people in my life that that was how I was raised. I left it out among people I dated and when I was married for the first time (shortly after turning 19) I never told my own spouse and it more of came out later through my copy of the mormon scriptures I still held on to. I never sought out “anti-mormon” literature or videos. I felt so alone and isolated in who I was and what I felt - this unexplainable trauma that followed me. I had so many questions but refrained from saying them out loud, most likely due to years of being asked to suppress my questions to prove that I was faithful and a good person. A follow of Christ. I often felt my experience similar to The Office quote by Ryan Howard when he is a temp “If I had to, I could clean out my desk in 5 seconds, and nobody would ever know that I’d been here. And I’d forget too.” Except it was my entire childhood and adolescence. So many people in my life promi